Who Would Have Thought?

Who would have thought- I guess that's the perfect situation to describe the situation that I am in now- the life that I'm living now. 

I am definitely not complaining, I don't know if I have processed it enough though.

Me, who has always been single, who has always wonder what the future holds- is now married and... expecting? 11 weeks 3 days to be exact. 

Before I get into that, I guess I have a lot of processing to do (mentioned this twice now). It is still surreal feeling that I am married- last relationship was in 2008 (did it event count though? To be honest, no, I don't think so). Ever since then, I didn't really see anyone. A few likes, crushes and heartbreaks here and there but I've never had like a 2nd 'boyfriend'. Boy.. does that sound silly now. 

I have tried and tried but my heart just would not open for anyone, God knows why- until I met my husband. It's an indescribable feeling, really. It felt natural, of course no relationships are without hiccups but let's not focus on the past. I just know that I love him, and I know he loves me too. Here's assuming no one's reading this entry, at least not at the near future haha.

So okay, let's delve into why I decided to create a new blog- I guess I just want to try to start fresh. The old blog is full of negativity, feelings that I don't want to re-remember. Yes, here's my attempt at documenting my pregnancy journey; I am at 11 weeks and 3 days now. Was this planned? Honestly, not too sure but it was not surprise surprise. Am I scared? Yes, terrified- with the way things are now, of course I am worried sick. I'm still an overthinker, that hasn't changed haha. But I believe I have a great support system and I believe God has great plans for me so I know I will be alright, InsyaAllah. Whatever happens, things are meant to happen that way. Keeping this in mind. 

When my husband wants to discuss baby names, I feel all flustered. Like.. wow. We are really doing this, as a team. First checkup at Klinik Kesihatan will be on Thursday next week, 15th Feb. Really hoping for positive results. I will try to update often here, for me to just look back on.

Here's hoping I can express a little bit better next time. Till the next entry-